Somebody told me today that all I do is lie to them. I, of course, immediately protested. This person giggled at me, and walked away. Then I thought...
"I do lie often, but not to you." Is this what Ms. Barbara meant when she said "irony?" Not Alanis Morrisette "irony," okay? Fuck that noise.
"Irony: the incongruity of this" - Dictionary.com
Sitting up, alone in my bed, I'm thinking of everyone I've lied to. Big lies, not "no, I'd never lie to you" lies. Those don't matter. Forget what you've heard, those do not, will never matter. I mean the lies I told a girl about a kiss. I mean the lies I told everyone about love; familial or otherwise. Now I'm thinking how far away I am from all those lies that I've told, because there have been more recent, higher priority lies.
She could giggle at me all day, and understand everything that I say as a lie, but I'd still talk.
There's this new me that just won't shut up. I'm so annoyed with myself, and always petrified of what I might say. Or who I might say it to. I've never been so surrounded in all my life. I've never been so excited. For fucking everything. There's this constant, stupid smile on my face. Or a brigade of questions followed by a therapist's suggestions.
"Shallow" - Rock + Roll (2003) - Ryan Adams
August 28, 2010
"I do lie often, but not to you." Is this what Ms. Barbara meant when she said "irony?" Not Alanis Morrisette "irony," okay? Fuck that noise.
"Irony: the incongruity of this" - Dictionary.com
Sitting up, alone in my bed, I'm thinking of everyone I've lied to. Big lies, not "no, I'd never lie to you" lies. Those don't matter. Forget what you've heard, those do not, will never matter. I mean the lies I told a girl about a kiss. I mean the lies I told everyone about love; familial or otherwise. Now I'm thinking how far away I am from all those lies that I've told, because there have been more recent, higher priority lies.
She could giggle at me all day, and understand everything that I say as a lie, but I'd still talk.
There's this new me that just won't shut up. I'm so annoyed with myself, and always petrified of what I might say. Or who I might say it to. I've never been so surrounded in all my life. I've never been so excited. For fucking everything. There's this constant, stupid smile on my face. Or a brigade of questions followed by a therapist's suggestions.
"Shallow" - Rock + Roll (2003) - Ryan Adams
August 28, 2010
